#Dont sleep away my baby how to#
#Dont sleep away my baby update#

There weren’t really any dramatic blow ups or legal action. He’s respected that and it’s made a huge difference in the hope I have for our future. I told him when I was ready we will talk. We don’t talk about the state of our marriage yet. I make sure my husband sees our child every day. Right now the general guidance I get from my therapist is don’t make any big moves yet (divorce, moving long distances, cutting people out ect) so I’m taking it day by day. I’ve been getting help with all this in therapy, which I have started twice a week. I don’t want my forgiveness to seem like weakness and in the end put my child in more situations like this.

#Dont sleep away my baby how to#

I’m in a hard place of trying to decide how to assert my authority as a mother without alienating my child from people who love them. I feel like she sees it as an “easier to has forgiveness than permission” sort of thing. I feel like her letter may be genuine but I don’t think I will ever trust her again for obvious reasons. I still haven’t reached out to her and I don’t know if I will. She asked me to reach out if and when I am ready. She is terrified about losing me as a DIL and her grandchild but she is going to keep her distance. She said if someone did that to her when her husband was young she’d want them to die. It basically said that she is sick about what she did. I thought about just throwing it out but I decided to read it. A few days after seeing my husband we met up again. People were finally backing me up and it gave me some peace of mind. Shortly after this whole thing happened I got a lot of texts from his family supporting me and letting me know they were so sorry about what happened and that no matter what my baby and I are family and we have their support.

I told him I’d think about what he said and keep in touch. He said he was willing to cut off contact for a while but asked I not press charges. He said he changed the locks on the home and would support whatever I wanted to do with his mom. He apologized and said he realized I was right, his mom had severely crossed a line and that it was hard for him to accept his mom did something so wrong so in his head he was telling himself it was not that bad and that if the baby wasn’t hurt then no harm was done but he wasn’t thinking about the hurt done to me and my feeling of security. My husband asked to talk so I agreed to meet with him. It was the most helpful thing anyone could have done for me. It was going way too long without sleeping and I think the deprivation of sleep was making me crazier. By the time she was here I was in a hotel and still had not slept. So soon after I wrote that post my mom had arrived to help me get through my anxiety and support me. I got so many messages and comments with support that meant so much to me.

#Dont sleep away my baby update#

This past two weeks have been crazy for me emotionally but I saw the request for an update and wanted to let everyone know what was going on even though it’s been generally uneventful.

I want to thank everyone again that thought about me after my first post.